Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Love until it Hurts

Do you ever get that feeling that this is most definitely not where you are suppose to be. I mean maybe in the moment you are, but not for long. Like this is just one step you have to take to get to where you want to be. Today my feeling of 'this is not where I'm to be' is very strong. I want to go somewhere and do something that makes me feel like I'm actually doing something that matters.

My dad and step-mom support a child through Compassion and they receive magazines from them monthly I think. Well the other day I was reading an article in that magazine. A reporter was interviewing some moms in different parts of the world and the topic of discussion was food. What do these women feed their family's, their children, when they literally have nothing? The answers broke my heart. A mom from South Africa said she feeds her children water with salt mixed in it. She says the salt at least makes them feel like they are eating something. A mother in Haiti said she feeds her children "mud cookies". This is a mixture of water, dirt, sometimes salt and oil. It all depends on what they can afford at the point in time. Can you imagine having to feed your children that? These stories break me. I don't know about you, but I especially feel a tug, a tug in my heart, that this is what I'm suppose to be doing. That I should be helping to feed those families and to hold the babies who have been left behind by their moms and dads. To play with the kids who don't have a chance to be a kid because they're too busy working so they can help bring in a little money for their families. Or maybe they are expected to take on the role of a mom or a dad because parents have left them or maybe because they have passed on.

Maybe it sounds silly. But these thoughts are always in the back of my head. I know I need to be patient. I need to wait till I'm not 30 thousand dollars in debt. I need to wait until I am out of college. I need to wait. There is no way I could go and do any of that at this moment. Not yet.

"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." -Mother Teresa

...sorry for my little rant...but thanks for listening :)

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Fathers Day!!

To my Daddy!


LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Workin on a Makeover!

So as you can see my blog is going under a makeover. Thanks to my brother-in-law (who by the way you can find at Blueberry's Dad) my page is looking much much better now! He gave me an entire blogging lesson last night, so hopefully my page keeps improving :) Stay tuned for an even more improved blog makeover as I continue to learn more!

Any suggestions??

Thursday, June 18, 2009


Last night, after gorging myself in some pretty amazing wings, I went home and decided to watch a little bit of a movie before falling asleep. We're borrowing a movie right now called Fireproof. I've secretly wanted to watch it ever since it came out, but it is a Christian film and no offense, but usually those films are so low budget and the acting is so bad I don't bother watching them. I know that sounds horrible, but it does bother me to a point that just because it is a Christian film it has to be low budget and bad acting. Why isn't it that we can't come out with some type of quality movie?? ...anyways, sorry about that...So despite my feelings about Christian films this one really caught my attention. So finally last night I put it in, and not to my surprise the acting was rather cheesy.

I made it part way through and considered calling it a night. I mean I was pretty sleepy and the movie was decent, but nothing incredible. But then I started really feeling for the characters. The gist of the story was there was a relationship that was falling apart and they were about to call it quits on each other and divorce, but the father of the husband challenges him with a 40 day "Love Dare". Every day there is a new task he must complete to win his wife back. The things he did for this woman were so precious. By the end of the movie I was sobbing. Full blown out tears. I'm sure it would have been interesting to see. So, if you can get past some cheesy acting I would seriously suggest this movie. It's darling. Oh and in their defense (the actors and actress's) they are not professional actors, but rather just a group of people from a church in Tennessee who put it together.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Rain Rain Go Away

So it has been VERY overcast around here the past couple days. We'll get hit with a little rain here, a few lightening bolts there. Nothing too big. But yesterday we got hit with one of the biggest storms I've seen in a long while. Thankfully I made it home from work before it hit, but no later than 15min after I stepped into the house the rain came. I swear it got harder and harder till we could hardly see the road looking out our living room window! Roads and yards were flooded. I even heard that a garage not to far from where I live got hit by lightening and caught fire. Scary stuff....Anyways...in the middle of this monster storm we lost power. I'm pretty sure it was out for a good 1.5hrs or so. We had nothing. No television. No internet. No lights. What were we to do!?!

It reminded me of when my siblings and I were younger and having the power go out was the coolest thing ever! We would each get a candle for our rooms and I remember a couple times we would wind up having little sleepovers in one of our rooms too. We'd giggle and talk till we fell asleep, but oh it was so much fun! I'm pretty sure secretly I would pretend we were on Little House on the Parries or something like that. :)

Yesterday, however, the power went out in the middle of the day so we could still see, so not as exciting. Today it is overcast again and I'm just waiting for the rain to come again. Pray for a clear day tomorrow! I'm going to a graduation and while I don't mind playing in the rain in the right get up, I'm thinking tomorrow would not be fun.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Dirt, Weeds and a Sore Back!

So I have decided that I am in the wrong business and that I need to switch from banking to landscaping. Yesterday Brett and I worked this one lady's flower bed for about 2.5hrs and I made more there than I feel I will ever make here at the bank. And it was fun too! I loved working with the Bids :) Even though we didn't talk a whole lot, I felt like it was quality time together! A project we worked on together and will finish together.

We started out pulling crazy amounts of weeds. I swear this woman had more weed than actual plants she wanted. Some of them were so deep we had to use a shovel to them. Ha ha I'm not gonna lie thought, this part got a bit old after a while and me, being the ADD chick that I am, had to find some way to entertain myself during this constant repetition of pulling weed after weed. I tried bagging the already pulled weeds, but that didn't last long. I also tried switching up the location where I was pulling weeds, but that didn't help much either. So, I started playing with the worms :) Every worm I found I put into the worm pile that I called their little social pit. A place where each worm could come and wiggle and socialize with the other little wormies :) (ha ha I'm not crazy I swear, I was just desperate for entertainment!)

Anyways, after weed pulling and playing with worms we dug up and moved around some plants to make the garden look more...symmetrical (??) or maybe more evenly spaced (??). We bagged a bunch of mulch and spread weed killer all over. Again, it was a lot of fun and I enjoyed every minuet of working with the Bids and getting my hands dirty! :) However, on the down side, I am sore from finger to toe! I'm thinking I am a bit out of shape...good thing we're not going back till next Tuesday!!

(ps yes, I'm going to try this blogging thing again. I get rather bored at work and my sisters tell me this can keep me entertained. So far they are correct :) )